The Lilith Academy
Shadow Work For The Western Woman
The Way Through is Backward
The A-Sides
Exoteric Bio
An Unconventional Childhood Insight
As a child, I had an unusual approach to solving cereal box mazes: I always started at the end and traced my way back to the beginning. My grandmother, watching with amusement, would chuckle and say, “You’re doing it all backward. You're doing it wrong.” Little did I realize that her words were an unwitting prophecy of the life path I was destined to follow—a path where ‘backward’ would become my unique way forward.
Roots in Resilience
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Legally adopted by my maternal grandparents and raised on the west side of San Antonio, Texas, my grandfather, a WWII veteran, brought a blend of gritty realism into my life. Our neighborhood, marred by gang violence, was a place of untapped raging, raw potential, trying to make do with the harsh realities of intergenerational poverty. The street was our place of higher learning. My grandfather, a wise and battle-scarred man, often said to me, "I'm raising you tough because you're a girl, poor, and brown – that's three strikes against you." He didn’t mean to scare me but to prepare me for the world. He taught me to pay attention and to speak against injustice. Reading newspaper stories to me daily, he instilled in me the power of awareness. "Use words as your weapons," he advised. This became the core principle guiding my life.
The Power of Words
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Initially, it was my grandfather's influence that ignited my drive to pursue justice and truth in the world. Inspired to be a warrior like him, I turned to words instead of M-15's as my secret weapons. I spent hours using them to unveil the core truth of matters, stripping situations down to their most naked and essential nature. This skill proved invaluable not only in confronting social injustices but also in navigating the complexities of my dysfunctional family for my self-preservation. Articulating myself became a superpower.
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A Turning Point at Mother Jones
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After graduating college in my late twenties, I embarked on a new chapter with a full-time, unpaid internship at Mother Jones Magazine. This period marked a significant turning point in my life. I found myself amidst a sea of privilege – among interns and fellows whose perspectives were shaped in more financially supportive environments. This contrast revealed an essential truth: words, though inherently powerful, gain their true meaning from the wisdom and intentions behind them, deeply rooted in our life experiences, or lack thereof. My time at Mother Jones was an eye-opener, revealing to me that democracy and social change are fundamentally internal processes, taking shape within before manifesting in the world outside.
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Contrasts and Insights
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To sustain myself financially, I discovered that stripping was the only part-time work that paid sufficiently. My days were a study in stark contrast: by day, I was part of the bustling, well-respected environment of a magazine in a San Francisco high-rise; by night, I descended into the raw, red-lit naked underworld of Larry Flynt's Hustler Club. This journey brought a crucial insight: traditional journalism, bound by corporate influences, was too restrictive for me. In contrast, the raw, uncontrolled realm of stripping aligned with my quest for truth. It suited my deep interest in exploring gender, power, shame, the feminine, and cultural studies.
Embracing the Lilith Path
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What began as a necessary choice in sex work evolved into a conscious decision. Journalism, it became clear, was wearing too many clothes for me. For two decades, I delved into this world as an observer and active participant. I transformed my life into fieldwork. Finally, after 20 years, I stepped away from sex work and began compiling my wealth of knowledge. My mission became to educate women on the intricacies of primordial power, internalized shame, the power of language and symbols, propaganda, cultural hegemony, and the essential process of decolonization. It's about helping women uncover their inner suppression to see the external oppression they face more clearly. This journey ultimately led to the creation of The Lilith Academy where I facilitate learning spaces and teach women how to rediscover, embrace, and empower their unfiltered, naked selves.
Reflecting on Inherent Wisdom
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Reflecting on my childhood habit of starting at the end of mazes on cereal boxes, I see it as an early sign of listening to inherent, universal wisdom. Starting from the end taught me to live in harmony with the soul’s true desires rather than conforming to society's arbitrary rules designed to uphold the status quo.
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A Life Devoted to Liberation
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I yearned for an original life, one not confined to pre-existing molds. This is my life's work: total devotion towards the liberation of Lilith in the Self and in the world. Returning to the root of things so that we may build again with more integrity. I am deeply honored that women from diverse backgrounds have chosen to embark on this journey of The Great Work for the feminine here at The Lilith Academy
The Way Out is Through
The B-Sides
Esoteric Bio
My natal chart interpretation by Shanna Cross of
Apogee of the Moon Astrology:
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Lilith Rising on the Ascendant in Sagittarius:
Lilith rising on the Ascendant in Sagittarius paints the picture of someone who has been an outsider since birth—often ostracized or scapegoated by family and consistently challenging societal norms, compelled to forge their own distinct path. As a seeker of truth and wisdom, Sagittarius embodies the spirit of the philosopher and explorer. In this position, Lilith has propelled Chriselda to explore the taboo and hidden realms of knowledge, seeking truths through direct experiences and intellectual pursuits that mainstream society often overlooks or avoids out of fear or shame.
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Pluto and Uranus Conjunction at the Midheaven:
Pluto and Uranus's conjunction at the Midheaven highlights a profound ability to decipher and reveal the hidden dynamics within social groups in dramatic and unconventional ways. People with this in their natal charts have unusual approaches to solving problems and are often ahead of their time. While they can be polarizing, this particular way also has the potential in equal proportion to bring about significant, lasting change. The conjunction of Pluto and Uranus at the Midheaven is exceptionally powerful for shadow work, merging Pluto's deep investigative prowess with Uranus's transformative innovation. This placement equips a shadow worker to unearth profound psychological issues and deploy highly effective, unconventional healing techniques.
Mercury at 29° in the 8th House:
At a potent 29° in the 8th house, Chriselda's Mercury symbolizes a deep mastery of the occult, magic, and psychological depths and a nuanced and profound understanding of power dynamics. This placement also endows Chriselda with the capacity to communicate chaos in meaningful ways, turning intricate and often hidden information into accessible knowledge. This insight into unseen forces allows her to effectively influence and precisely navigate complex situations.
The Cardinal Cross in Chriselda's Astrological Chart:
The Cardinal Cross in Chriselda's astrological chart underscores her intense experiences in this physical reality and aligns with the dynamic energy of initiation and challenge. This configuration is crucial for its ability to propel action and change. In shamanism, facing and overcoming such challenges is often essential to a shaman's journey, gaining spiritual power and wisdom through trials and initiations. This mirrors the pivotal changes and challenges that have propelled Chriselda's personal growth and transformation, indicative of a shamanic path. Alongside this, she has effectively leveraged her creativity, psychological resilience, and the support of her social networks, coupled with significant inner resources highlighted by a powerful stellium in the 8th house—featuring the Sun, Mercury, Venus, and the South Node. This combination points to her capacity to navigate and transform through life's deeper and more complex layers, essential traits in shamanic practice.
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Engagement with Darkness:
Chriselda's chart undoubtedly reveals a deep engagement with darkness and challenging initiations, a necessary journey for anyone seeking to truly understand it. This depth and complexity are woven through her direct experiences, illustrating an innate outsiderness: a life lived authentically, boldly, and without compromise.